Still Stuck In This Moment, Yes I'm Still Here!! Beaten Down By Truth And Patronized By Fear

Who said that darkness could be microwaved to light?
your fighting yourself, oh what a fight
your fighting God too
but you want him on your side
will he move or will I?

come and drink and read and think
master your mind and find the link
you scan every line of "holy writ"
you kick and scream and pound and spit

Who said my strength could swallow my pride?
or that rationality could heal the blind?
let's do hide and go seek again
but this time I'm hiding and its your turn to find

wake me when I'm sober
find me when I'm dry
wet my yearning appetite
don't put me in your line

I'm lobbying now with cardboard signs
I'm making my demands
I'm bringing down the government
of everything I am

but then I'll crawl again because I got nowhere to go
will you come here and pick me up
I'm too tired to walk home
I've wrestled with myself so long I just need time to breathe
so plant a seed to raise a tree
and heal this heart of stone

.....the suspense that something could happen

You've got enough weight to break me now
when I take a step will you step with me
You've got enough weight to break me down
my chest's in knots its hard to breathe